a toast to new beginnings
it took me weeks in second life to learn to walk, fly, teleport and to have my heart broken. i would have been much better off if i had let the heartbreak heal at that point. instead, i picked at the scab for close to 5 months. all in all, the entry into second life should be easier than it is.
finding live music in second life is one of the best things that has happened to me in years. i have rediscovered my love for music and performance and the joy it brings me is without bounds. hosting shows at molaskey's pub is great fun and i love the friends i have made there dearly.
buying land in sl on my own was frightening but i am so glad i did it. i love creating there and the constant tinkering with the place touches my need for "home" and personal space. it is the only home i have created in my life entirely on my own without the influence of family or roommates. strange to think of it that way, but its true. my place is beautiful -- come visit and you will see.
fashion -- i am a jeans and t-shirt woman in rl. i don't care about fancy clothes or fashion one bit but when i got to sl --zomg. i love to play dress up and spend way too much money on slclothing. even worse, i cannot leave good freebies alone and fashion designers give away a lot of cool stuff. lately i have been on a merciless path of deleting clothes that don't fit or move well, things with bad textures and anything in arglye or emerald green. still my inventory has exploded to more than 9,100 items in 6 months. thats a lot, right? so why do i wear the same pair of jeans all the time? hehe
exploring sl is endless and amazing. am in awe of the talents of so many people especially those who create animations and major builds like the rezzable sims. how do you do it? can i climb inside your mind for a while and watch? i think it would be fascinating to spend some time learning from each and every one of you. but beyond that -- thank you for making second life the amazing playground that i enjoy every day.
i am not much into naming names in my blog but i do want to say something to the people who have touched my heart over the past few months. you know who you are. to my girlfriends who have helped me through some very difficult times -- you have no idea how grateful i am for your compassion and your support. thank you from the bottom of my heart. in a way i started my sl over in november when i created this blog. i had a lot to leave behind and i am so glad i did. blogging has brought people into my life in a way that has taken me by surprise. i am grateful for the pure fun you add to my day. finally, i have been lucky to have met someone who i have grown close to recently. thank you for the gift of your time and your affection. i look forward to more dancing, conversation and laughter.
i'm not much of a planner or even a goal setter. it seems a little too much like work. having said that there are things i want to do. in no particular order i want to:
dance daily
listen to live music every chance i get
love unconditionally and without jealousy or possessiveness
give more than i take
build something in sl i am truly proud of
take photographs that make me smile
be genuine
so 2008. here you are! welcome.
giggle mania
today at molaskey's we had three great and well attended shows. first up was a musician who was new to me -- baba johnson, who is from Sweden. i hope i got that right - i'm no journalist folks and for god's sake please don't expect a music review either! ;) anyway, i enjoyed his set of covers and original work. i hope he comes back to molaskey's and i'll post the date and time if he does so you can come. i think you will enjoy baba's voice.

next up was my fav lyndon heart followed by patrick lasalle. during the shows we established that i am a lyndon groupie, a patrick groupie and a grace groupie. i do think its fair to say that i am an equal opportunity groupie. if you entertain me and i am inworld i will be at your show. i am spread way too thin to be a stalker so no one should be concerned.

on a different subject entirely, i am contemplating an end of the year post. i don't do resolutions but january 1 is as good a time as any to reflect and plan. so i am thinking about what i want to do and how much is bloggable. probably some but not all of what is floating around in my pea brain will make it to this space.
found treasures

you just have to walk in there, don't you? well i certainly do. when i got inside i was rewarded by this mural and statue.

hey wait a second...it occurred to me the little girl looks a little like alice...and i just walked through a key hole...somewhere around this little gem in a sim called la reina, alice must be having tea with her friends...

lovely.
mentor meeting
randomness
99.5% is damn good but its not perfect.
perfect is highly overrated.
projects that are operated as a collaborative can be very, very challenging. i have not yet decided if the rewards outweigh the frustrations, but i am leaning towards yes.
when i attend live music in sl i say "i love this song" so much my friends laugh at me. every day.
i tore my sl house apart *again* today. i think i reached a milestone though because in shopping for a specific piece of furniture i realized i could make what i wanted and it would be just as good as half of what people are selling. i have no intention of selling my stuff but i don't need to buy it either. this is big for me kids.
the trader came in tiny empires today. i made over a million gold. this is a very good thing. i still need subjects though.
gnite. i'm going to stare at the ceiling and listen to my family sleep.
headsets
what being on a laptop means though is i am really hard on my headset for some reason. either i bend the pin that connects to the laptop or i trip over the farkin wire and snap it or some damn thing. this time i got insurance for $8.95 and the guy at best buy swore they would replace the headset if i broke it. lets just see how that goes when i head back there on saturday when i get back to ny.
right now i have music in only one ear and no microphone at all. i just know when i tell people i cant talk in voice because my mic is broken they think i'm a man in rl. i am not a man i swear. can't you tell by my bitchiness? (yes, yes this is not the most pc thing in the world to say. deal.)
what is in a name?
i love it when i run across people who have creative and clever names in sl. way back at the beginning i put off creating an account because i could not decide on a name. so how did i come up with chestnut rau? i have lived on a "chestnut street" three different times in my life, in three different cities. it was totally random each time but after a while it did start to be a running theme. if there is a "chestnut" anything im sure to run into it. as a matter of fact this week my family and i are taking a short vacation. as we made our way to the hotel i giggled to find out it was on -- you guessed it -- chestnut street.of course "chestnut street" is just about as popular a name in the us as "main street" so its not all that strange. anyway, long ago i took to using chestnut as my name online and i chose not to move away from it when i started my sl. i chose rau because it was short and unoffensive. so there you have it.
how did you pick your second life name?
merry, merry, happy, happy
this was my first christmas in second life. it has been very interesting -- but that is what i think about everything in sl let's be honest. i got about 87 cards and just like in RL failed to get my act together to create and send a card to a single soul. i received a number of thoughtful and lovely gifts, including one that left me stunned and speechless -- which is certainly a feat as we all know. i attended some great parties and fun events. all in all i had a great time.
BUT
i didn't grow up celebrating christmas. we were the only family on our block who didn't have a christmas tree and ours was the only house that didn't twinkle with colorful lights during the month of december. as a kid i totally thought ornamentation and illumination was what christmas was all about. i so wanted all the pretty stuff the other kids had and because we didn't celebrate in the same way i always felt like an observer rather than a participant. to some extent i still feel that way now.
this morning i am thinking in second life you can be a participant or you can be an observer as well. you can create content, organize events, throw yourself into the community and find your niche. or you can watch what happens and let the world created by others unfold around you. it seems like an easy choice to me. i have been an observer for a long time and its time for me to step out of that role and fully participate.

so, merry merry, happy happy to you. may your ornamentation be stunning and may the season prove to be illuminating. i hope the gifts that matter leave you stunned and speechless.
SLCN tonite live
here is paisley interviewing alanagh recreant the founder of sl africa who discussed her work to eradicate poverty via enterprise development. she is working within sl to bring an african presence to the world.

then in a bit of turn around is fair play yxes delacroix the producer of tonite live interviewed paisely!

next up was drfran babcock who studies people who live sl in a way that is different than they are in rl such as furries, kitchen appliances, pastries, and of course gender bending. i was a little disappointed because basically she said we can be whatever we want in sl so people do. well, maybe that really is all there is to say on the subject.

the audience at the show is part of the fun. the comments fly and i spent most of the time cracking up. tonite live is definitely worth checking out if you have time.
ETA. i posted this last night and in looking back i want to add that the sl platform itself makes it difficult to produce the show. the normal connectivity problems, lag, and basic instability of the platform make the production of the show technically challenging. as sl improves so will the ability of creative people to make great tv inworld. i see huge huge potential here and so look forward to saying "i was in the audience when tonite live was brand new."cryptic, why yes
if someone can explain to me *why* emotions are so magnified in second life i would very much appreciate it. of course, its great that the highs are so incredible but i could do without the lows thank you very much. im so greedy. hehe

on another topic all together i highly recommend baking gingerbread cookies with young children, until the fighting starts. at that point pouring yourself a large glass of bailey's irish cream is a great idea. top it off with some lyndon heart music and you can salvage the afternoon.
wtf is going on



every few minutes i was unable to move and flailing about or my avi was twisted into a ball. it was quite comical.
enough procrastinating. i have to start running around among the stressed out masses. my plan is to laugh and retain perspective on this day, the season and my "to do" list. if i accomplish nothing more between today and the magical day of december 25th i will still have a truly blessed first life and a bubbling, growing, engaging second life. cheers!
i lurve sl
first i went to jamaica's place for another one of her "lets tp everyone we know" dance parties. lots of particles, crazy people, silly conversation and the sudden realization that out of this select group of women i am the only one who didn't date this one very hot but hound dawg guy. thank god
then i went over to visit with my friend marko who is about to open his gallery/store. mark and i have been friends for a long time but rarely get time together so it was great to have some uninterrupted time to talk about art, music and quantum physics. (that bit was him. i am more into a great recipe for cookies than quantum physics, but i let his particular fascination with science and the nature of consciousness go.) mark builds homes, creates furniture, sculpture and paintings. this is one of his images.

we were pondering names for his shop and ended up tping in the super smart and creative crap mariner to help us think it through. crap had to jet off to attend to his groupies or some such thing (hehe) so mark showed me more of the furniture he has been creating. i will be sure to blog about the opening of his store when it is scheduled as mark is making some great things. i especially love his paintings and cant wait to be able to buy one.

at this point i headed over to molaskey's to spend some time with mia, katy and my sweet chester. we wandered around calla's treasure hunt and got tons of freebie hair and other stuffz. i was unable to rez anything so tomorrow i will see what it is i have and maybe even do a little barbie fashion show for y'all. i must say chester was patient and great. he is not into hair or fashion but he stayed with me and helped us with the hunt and the trivia contest. what a great guy -- you will notice a trend of me saying that a lot.
at the end of the evening i had more interesting and unbloggable conversation. yes, this is about you! laughs. no need to wonder.
i do not have to go back to the office until after the new year. oh my giggles. that makes me happy.
25 groups once again. lets mebbe try and get LL to fix it?
I don't send out too many group notices, but here's a request on the bloggers to use their influence to try to make a positive change on Second Life. As you have probably know the group limit is very annoying and I think almost everyone would like to see it increased. It is the #1 issue on the Jira bug tracker. Please add yourself to the Jira bug, and make a posting urging your readers to do the same. It takes 30 seconds to do and maybe we can get Linden Lab's attention to make the change.Thanks!
now lets not pretend i have any influence whatsoever, but im all for doing my part. so - both of you readers - please go vote for the jira here https://jira.secondlife.com/browse/MISC-208 kthanks.
what a difference a day makes
i have had lots of coffee and nummy homemade cookies given to me by a dear friend. note to self - caffeine and sugar is a winning combination.
later today i'm going to be able to get into sl i just know it. i messed around with my ao this morning to make it less twitchy and that makes me happy. its thursday so there will be great music at the freudian slip tonight. my day is looking better and better. ahhhh......
this picture is taken at my place. pretty, no? im no photog thats for damn sure, but i do like this shot.
monkeys banging on the grid
today i had to deal with lawyers, accountants and about 573 self-important idiots. my daughter has strep throat and i am not feeling that great myself. my house is a mess, my kids are fighting, the cat has a cold and keeps sneezing on me and i need to fold about 6 loads of laundry.
really and truly all i *want* to do is put my headphones on, close my eyes and listen to someone sing pretty songs. its not too much to ask, is it? unfortunately, i cant log in atm.
i don't have a picture of monkeys but i do have a snap of an owl sculpture -- will that do?
happy birthday chester

today is one of my dearest sl friend's rl birthday. happiest of happy birthdays to you sweet chester. we had a little skating party for him at the rink he built on one of his properties. as it turns out it is also the rl birthday of our friend syzygy so most heartfelt good wishes go to you too. seems unfair to have to dj at your own birthday party, doesnt it syz?

**content removed due to excessive bitchiness**
dont you dare~
dancing with jamaica
jam threw down the dance floor at her place and cranked up the stream. we danced and tp'ed in a bunch of friends including jenna! we keep saying we should create a group! hehe
lyrics and poetry du jour
If - Joni Mitchell inspired by the poetry of Rudyard Kipling
If you can keep your head
While all about you
People are losing theirs and blaming you
If you can trust yourself
When everybody doubts you
And make allowance for their doubting too.
If you can wait
And not get tired of waiting
And when lied about
Stand tall
Don't deal in lies
And when hated
Don't give in to hating back
Don't need to look so good
Don't need to talk too wise.
If you can dream
And not make dreams your master
If you can think
And not make intellect your game
If you can meet
With triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same
If you can force your heart
And nerve and sinew
To serve you
After all of them are gone
And so hold on
When there is nothing in you
Nothing but the will
That's telling you to hold on!
Hold on!
If you can bear to hear
The truth you've spoken
Twisted and misconstrued
By some smug fool
Or watch your life''s work
Torn apart and broken down
And still stoop to build again
With worn out tools.
If you can draw a crowd
And keep your virtue
Or walk with Kings
And keep the common touch
If neither enemies nor loving friends
Can hurt you
If everybody counts with you
But none too much.
If you can fill the journey
Of a minute
With sixty seconds worth of wonder and delight
Then the earth is yours
And everything that's in it
But more than that I know
You'll be alright
You'll be alright.
Cause you've got the fight
You've got the insight
You've got the fight
You've got the insight
who takes care of the soldiers?

as i was dancing at the war child benefit i started to think about the victims of war. there are so many victims and helping any of them seems overwhelming. giving is rewarding but what i can do seems like a teardrop in the ocean.
then i started to think about the soldiers. who helps them when they come home from war broken? i had heard about the wounded warrior program and i wanted to post a link here. if you are in a position to help this organization then please consider doing so.
https://www.woundedwarriorproject.org/
SLACC benefit for war child
if you go to slacc any time between now and christmas you can donate to help this worthy cause. here we go with the pita surls. so sorry but i'm lame. get used to it i guess http://slurl.com/secondlife/Lilac%20Island/43/35/22

while you are at slacc take a look around. there is amazing art from a very talented group of second life artists. photography, sculpture, paintings. all here. wander around and enjoy. i certainly did.
snowman building contest

i wandered over to Linden Village to pick up my winterfest hud this morning. clearly, i still cannot follow simple directions and make this link clickable but if you cut and paste it into your browser you will get the surl to the spot where you can get your very own free winterfest hud http://slurl.com/secondlife/Wengen/12/226/86
anyway, while i was there i poked around to see the results of the 2007 snowman building contest. the creations ranged from the traditional

to the very creative and artistic

and several things in between




as i was getting ready to leave i came across this tribute to torley linden.

instantly i knew what i had to do. yes, in honor of my friend mr. crap i had to make a matzo snowman. you know you want one so he is free to copy on my beach in jokung. no pushing in the line. play nicely, please.
congratulations grace
new skin
most recent build



so i iam working on my building skills. i started with the bathtub and have since moved on to create a whole dressing room kind of space. no idea why this is what i made, but who am i to question ideas or creativity or whatever you want to call it. once again, the pics are not the best but you get the general idea. if you really want to see it im me in world and you too can read a book on the chaise.
living by the ocean

see the lovely linden ocean? isn't it sparkly? the blue is just the right shade and you can imagine if you were to dive in -- the water would be clear and refreshing once you got past the initial shock of the bone-chilling cold. i love living by the water. i can't in rl so my little patch of land in jokung is a living out a life-long dream.
the problem is the blue linden ocean in the picture is where jokung is supposed to be. yes my sim and everything in it has been missing for the past 4 hours. i'm trying not to be frustrated. but i am failing. miserably.
please.........respect the busy
and now back to your regularly scheduled second life. cheers










