The thing about dogs is they are loyal. No matter how many times I grumble at Chloe for being underfoot or yell at her because I had a bad day, she still puts her head in my lap every single time I sit on the sofa. If I let her she will climb in my lap, wrap herself around me as much as 45 pounds of dog is able and she will lick my face. Dogs will love you no matter what you do and they are ridiculously loyal friends.
Some days I think Chloe's loyalty is misplaced. I don't take her to the woods and let her run nearly as much as I should. I do sometimes take my frustrations out on her and all too often I ignore her completely. I rarely let her climb on my lap and the face licking grosses me out so that just can't happen.
I am sure I disappoint Chloe a lot. And yet? She is always hopeful today will be the day she can get a little love. She tests the theory by tentatively putting her head in my lap. If I respond she will nudge my hand and ask me to pet her. If I take a moment to pet her it isn't more than a second before she is climbing in my lap, even though she knows full well I am going to push her off every single time.
I am a very loyal to my friends. Once I let someone behind the firewall it takes a hell of a lot for me to give up on a friendship. Having said that? Occasionally, being loyal leaves me feeling a little like Chloe - hopeful and just a little bit stupid.
ETA: Why yes, since you asked, this post *is* about one particular friendship. You really did not think I was going to say who, now did you?